I. Am. Clueless.

Are you one of those people who can watch a TV show and figure out who dun it before the first commercial break?

Can you read a book and figure out the the story set-up before you hit the end of the first act?

Can you tell what people are talking about across a mall simply through their body language?

I can't.

I. Am. Clueless.

Do you think I'm one of those people who plot and plan just to get back at someone?

If you do, then boy have I pulled the wool over your eyes. Heck, I can barely hold my own in a Tic-Tac-Toe game, much less trying to figure out intricate chess moves. I'd be the first one voted off Survivor. Either that or the strong players would want to take me to the end because they can't imagine someone being so obtuse.

I am as you see me, flaws and all.

I am brutally honest.
--though I try to temper my honesty with compassion. Sometimes I fail. I'm human. Sometimes I get angry and vent. But once I vent, I'm done. It doesn't last long. And it isn't loud. The veritable tempest in a teacup.

I don't like emotional conflict and tend to avoid it at all costs -- which explains my writing issues.

I don't hold grudges -- Who does the grudge effect? YOU. Not the person who you hold a grudge against.

Don't give me the silent treatment if I make you mad. It won't work. It isn't because I'm that strong of a personality. Oh, no. It's because I'm that OBTUSE. I won't even realize it. I'll think you aren't feeling good, or whatever. Trust me, this has happened in the past.

And I'm loyal to a fault. I will always stay loyal to someone until I've been screwed over so many times that I finally cut my losses.

I have a wide circle of people who I would call close acquaintances, but not friends.

I don't have a huge circle of friends. And my bestie is my hubby, not another female friend.

BUT I will say this:  If I call you my friend, I want you to know that would take a bullet for you.

And yes, some of you reading this will know who you are, while others will have no clue that I feel this way.

I may be thoughtless in my comments at times. Or imprudent in what I write. But just realize, there is no hidden agenda. I'm not trying to sabotage anyone.

I am simply clueless.

I am what I am.

I say what I mean, so take what I say at face value. There is no hidden meaning. If you don't like it, then you can remove yourself from my sphere.

Later, Peeps!


Cynthia D'Alba said...

YIKES! Who stomped on your toes? If it was me, I Am Clueless. :)

Yes, I DO usually figure out who did it on TV shows...most books too.

I would be the first person kicked off survivor because I can't shut up.

My critiques are too brutal.


magolla said...

It wasn't you, Cyndi.

It was a cumulative effect of a lot of stuff hitting the fan, family stuff, job stuff mixed in with sleepless nights involving heavy night sweats and serious hormonal fluxuations. And then you throw in a full moon and Mercury retrograde and BAM! It hits you right in the kisser!

All I have to say is . . . DAMN, it hurts taking a bullet!

Jody Werner said...

You sound a lot like me :)

Jody Werner said...

(PS - I would be the first one kicked off survivor, because while the others were looking for food and shelter, I'd be looking for a place to plug in my hair dryer)

magolla said...

Funny, Jods!

Glad to know I'm not the only one in the clueless category. I hate to say it, but it doesn't seem to be getting any better with age!

Twisted Sister said...

I know what it is like to have a friend, then to have a friend.

magolla said...

Meg-- :-)

Marilyn said...

A "friend" once gave me the silent treatment for a month. (Not as kids; this was just before the advent of email.) Silly me, I just thought she was busy with her deadlines and life. So she had another friend call to TELL me she was giving me the silent treatment. Friend #2 and I laughed for years about that.

I like you just the way you are, Mags. I have this habit of saying, "I like so-and-so BUT . . ."

With you, there is no "but."

magolla said...

Aw . . . Thank you, Marilyn! I'm so glad I'm not the only one that the silent treatment doesn't work on.

You are one of the special people in my life. We need to get together more often.

If you ever need to enjoy the Oasis--the pool is open (freezing cold).